________ .she is living in her own world.

2009-08-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

Clinical Attachment is starting tomorrow!!!
Ppl are you ready!!!
This clinical attachment is going to stretch all the way to NEXT YEAR!!!
I wish you all luck and
Hope that we can all graduate together!!!
GOOD LUCK :)

2009-08-15T00:07:00.008+08:00

Ann is back!!!
She is back in Singapore!!!
Phuket is fun.
Everything is so slow there.
No exam.
No school.
Only relaxing.
I am so going back there.
The next time I go, I am going to stay there for a week plus.

there is nice massage and manicure here!!! cheap! cheap! cheap!

monkey! monkey! monkey!

sleeping god!

nice mandicure

isnt this photo cute

those two are are trans!!! but the guy is so handsome

we are going out!!

isnt the beach nice?

You called me today.
I am surprised but I am not happy.
cause you never call me,
just because of me.
Is always about someone else.
Ann
You need to let go.
Need to be strong.

2009-08-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

I am such a coward!!!
I am so selfish!!!
I know it myself.
YEAR 3.
FYP.
NOT GOING TRAINING.

Sorry.

That's the only thing I can say now.
When rox talk to me that day, telling me if I wanna come just give her a call.
All I feel is guilt.
immeasurable guilt.

Should I go back to the team???
This question keep popping in my mind.
I dunnoe???
I like the team.
I like every player in the team.
But I just cant bring myself back to the team.

Serene
Sorry.

Hui Shi
sorry.

Roxanne
sorry.

Sheryl
Sorry.

Sorry Team NP
Ann dun belong there anymore.
Jiayou.

2009-08-04T21:06:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!
I am so died!!!
I actually fall asleep while studying NSL.
ANN TAY XUAN WEN
WAKE UP!!!
NSL TEST IS TOMOLO!!!
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

Anyway during the short nap, I dreamt of him.
So wrong ann. So wrong. Haix.
I still miss you.

2009-07-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Finally!!! 1 project down!!!
Another 2 more to go!!!
Jia you Ann!!!
Keep going at this speed you will complete all your projects soon!!!

Anyway~
Things have been weird this few days.
You look so moody and stuff.
Sometime I wonder why?
Is it me?
Cause this few days when I tried to talk to you.
You simply ignored me!!! and this make me super angry.
I dunno!! I dunno what you are thinking about???
Not that I must know but, the way you treat me is different compared to the past.
And because of the way you treat me. I starting to think if I am the cause of the trouble.
When I ask you?
You say is just you.
Haix!!! Ann is really confuse.
But never mind you said that you will be okay!!!
And Ann take your words so I am just going to stand by your side
And like what I always say
I may not be the one who can help you.
I may not be the one who can ease your pain.
I may not be the one who can bring laughter to you.
But you know I am always there.
All of us will be there.
Standing right beside you to give you support.
And all you need to do is just turn.
So is up to you?

I know sometime I might be the cause of trouble if I am.
I am sorry.
You just need to tell me.

To: a secondary school basket ball friend who dun really like me and i dun really like you.
Congratulation!!!
Hope that you will be happy forever!!!
And you and your husband will be as loving as ever!!!
GONG XI GONG XI

2009-07-24T14:30:00.003+08:00

Oh dear!~ I didnt go school today and again.
and debarment execrise is still going on.
Plus I miss a class test today.
Oh how great is that!
Anyway Ann is having bbq later at miss lee's house
hahaha I just cant wait.

Anyway I meet up with yanping and manda yesterday for dinner.
Den I meet Chuan Xiang.
We have a very long talk yesterday all the way till 3 in the morning.
hahaha. ( maybe that the cause why I cant wake up)
Talking to him just relaxes me so much.
I have been so stress up.
with projects projects and projects!!!
Okay I should be back on my project already.

Pls take care for yourself. Do not be stubborn.
Rest them well. Dun act hero.
And pls recover fast. I will be there if you need me, you know it yourself.

2009-07-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

Ann misses you.

2009-07-17T15:21:00.002+08:00

When can these miscommunications stop?

Again this is like dunnoe how many times in this week.

I am seriously very tired of everything.

Can you all please just listen to me?

and stop jumping into conclusions.

2009-07-17T01:13:00.002+08:00

It been 7 days since I last see him.
Last message him.
Why do feel sad when I know that he is coming?
I want to see him.
I want to know how he has been the last week.

Nevermind Ann is okay?
You are strong.

2009-07-16T21:36:00.004+08:00

How long has it been since I last blog?
I lost count myself.
Hahaha.
Ann is now sitting at starbucks@ holland
with Sheena busy working.

This whole month has been a horrible.
Ann went through a total disaster.
Be it her friends,
love,
or her study.
It hasn't been even normal.

Friends:
I really dunnoe what are the things that I have done to make you treat me like that.
For someone who I consider important to me.
Don't you know me well enough that I will not hide thing from you all.
Sometime things dun go my way.
Neither can I predict what is coming up next.
So how can you blame me for hiding from you when i dunnoe even know it at the point of time what is going to happen next???
Like seriously, when is the last time you call me to talk?
To hear my problems?
To share what is happening in your life?
Well, is okay.
Anyway, this thing is over.
So lets not get bother about it.

Friends:
Thanks for been there for me!!!
Ann really dunnoe what to say.
You hear me out.
Advise me.
Point me the correct path.
I really appreciate it all.
Like as much as the mother earth.
Hahahaha.
Okay I know is very lame.

For the guy, 6 years ago:
Each and everytime we got back in contact, to me.
It is like a fairy tale.
But this fairy tale never has a happy ending.
It always end up,
the prince falling in love with another person.
But never her.
Being stupid for so long.
She has finally gave up.
The feeling of being invisible, is finally going away.

2009-04-04T14:54:00.003+08:00

2009-04-04T14:16:00.004+08:00

Hi people!!!! Okay I know I hasn't been updating for freaking long but I was really too busy and so many thing has taken place during this past 1 month. First of all my birthday on the 9 of march den followed by "Hong Kong Study Trip" ( I think it should be more of shopping trip) from 9 - 13 march and up next is Ngee Ann Basketball Camp super fun and relaxing from the 16 - 18 march and up come the most exciting part of the month JJ LIN JUN JIE WORLD TOUR on the 28 of march, this is the first stop of his world tour and his will be travelling around the world for his fascinating. NO ONLY THAT 27 MARCH IS HIS BIRTHDAY so we all celebrated his birthday during his concert and her teared OMG SO TOUCHING!!!!! I wish that night will never have to end. Then the most boring thing Clinical Attachment @ KKH and IMH from 16 march all the way till 9 April. So so many things and not to forget women open!!!
Okay larx first of all i will up load my darling photos (cause Hong Kong Trip got more than a thousand photo to upload so i will skip that first) Hope you all will enjoy it. WELL actually you all must enjoy cause he is so handsome how can you not enjoy it? Hahaha

2009-03-06T18:40:00.002+08:00

3 more days to HONG KONG!!!!i shoud be feeling super happy right now busy packing my luggage to see if i miss anything and buy the things that i dun have but i am NOT. NOT FEELING HAPPY NEITHER AM I FEELING EXCITED.MY MONEY JUST GOT STOLEN 500HK DOLLAR = TO 100SGD. AT HOME SOMEMORE. I am feeling super angry but i cant do any thing search everyone room? how can i do that. i really feel super bad luck this few day esepically with money. money keep kana con if not lost if not stolen. got money now become no money ar.

2009-02-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

OHHH MYYYY GODDDD!!!!
shen li, i super duper hyper right now larx!!!!
i went to read jason blog and you know what i see ma!!!
HE WENT TO MY IDOL HOUSE LARX!!!!
OMG!!! OMG!!! OHHH MYYY GODDD LARXXX!!!!
I ALSO WAN TO GO TO MY IDOL HOUSE LARX!!!
I WANT TO SEE HIM PLAY BALL!!!
I WANT TO GO WATCH HIS MATCH!!!
OH MY GOD!!! SHEN LI, I WANT TO SEE MY IDOL!!!
i cant wait for basketball camp to come larx! i hope that he will go too!~
den i can play ball with him!!!
OH MY GOD TELL ME WHO CAN BE MORE PERFECT THAN HIM

2009-01-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

HIPPY HIPPY HURRAY!!!
NGEE ANN BASKETBALL TEAM WENT IN TO TOP 4!!!
YEAH!!! WE BROKE THE CURSE!!!
EVERYONE XIN GU LE BUT GOOD JOB!!!
Today we played with NTU. we lost to them by 21 points. But i am super happy. Cause people around keep saying that we will lose 40 over but we didnt. In fact, we played super duper good larx. Specially TINA TOH. OMG!!! I am so impressed by your performance today larx. So to my beloved team mates i would like to say---> Even though we never win today but we play our best. We fight together to the end of this game. So everyone be proud of yourself. You guys played really well today. Even though not all of us perform to our peak today but you know you put in your best, so dun regret. ENJOY. I LOVE YOU ALL SO M---U---C---H!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FEELING: Sometimes I really wonder am I asking to much from a friend. Or is it me again asking something back when i put in alot of effort. World is never fair. Well!! So what can I ask for and hope for. I have been there for all your games. Each and everyone of them. ( ya i know i want to go one ma.) But is it really too much to even come down for one of mine. (I know I am not playing so even if you are down 'so what', but I really hope you can accompany me. Is the moral support, do you understand?) I also know that you are very packed work and study. But you are never there. You actually can say that anyway other person is not going down ma? Then can i ask you WHAT ABOUT ME?????? Am I not a human or am i not a friend??? I am really super hurt larx. How can you say that? WHATEVER~ I will not ask again for your appearance. I should just take what is given and what you have decided. Just like what I have said ' I not longer going to act like a child, complaining of the ways that i think you dun treat well me as a friend. It is endless and is tiring. So I will be thankful and grateful of what you have done for me.' You have your reason so well, I will take it.

2009-01-13T23:52:00.003+08:00

photo session

2009-01-13T16:14:00.002+08:00

Wahahaha I MISS YOU BLOG!!! I so long never blog le lorx!!! Stupid brother spoil my lovely pretty computer "hai wo" cannot blog. Okay okay lets jump to my life currently. I am super duper busy right now. IVP going on. Projects lining up to be done. And many brithdays to be celebrated. YanPing's on the 7th , Adeline's on 11th , and my idol's on 12th and coming up YiLing on 19th. So many So many stuffs. Later we are having game with NUS. OMG OMG LORX!!! Hahaha. Got to go le. Go watch my Naruto le. bye bye.

2008-12-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

BORED BORED BORED.
I AM SUPER DUPER BORED TODAY.
STUPID HUIQI IS TALKING ON PHONE NOW!!!
HMMMM BUT I AM A NICE GIRL. I WILL WAIT FOR HER TO FINISH TALKING.
this two days i have been with huiqi to make a secret present. hmmm things have been hard for huiqi. i really hope that she will get over it soon. seeing her like that let me think about my past. stupid ugly past which i miss and hate at the same time. the feeling that you want someone but you cant. you love someone so deeply but you cant. words from her which stab you deep into your heart. i really dun understand why? LOVE is so hard. people fall in love. people get sick and tired. then lastly people get sad. and once again the cycle repeat again. i have been going jurong area recently going pass the place where memories are bury deep down in my heart. and every time i pass these places stupid wierd feeling will come back. i really cannot figure out why? so many years le. what is wrong with me. i just know that she got a lj. i so wish that i can go in to see what is happening in her life but i know i cant. if i do that i will miss her agian. HAIYA DUNNOE HOW LARX!!! IDIOTIC!!! ANN IS GOING TO WORK HARD FOR HER BOND. CAUSE NO HOSPITAL WANT HER.
ANYWAY I SO CANT WAIT TO SEE THE PICTURE I TAKE WITH FARAH'S CAMERA. SO WANT TO GO SENTOSA AGAIN.

2008-12-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

Today is so bored. i stay at home the whole day larx.I am going to be bored to death le. How i wish someone will ask me go play ball den i wont be so bored le. BORED BORED BORED. Yesterday was fun. Cause yesterday is full sports day swimming then followed by street balling with cass, joyce, jieying, yahui, huiqi, avis, meining, katek, weibin, prawn and huijai ( dunnoe is it this name, cannot remember le). But 1 very sad thing is i think i really am very lousy. keeping eating steamboat. I need to improve. Must think of a way to avoid eating steamboat.
Plan for this hoilday, workup on my stamine and cut down on my supper. And most importantly must ball more to improve bball skill.

2008-11-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

After resting for 1 week i finally got to play my favourite basket ball today. Happy. But everything seem so off today. My shooting is off. My lay up is even worse, totally got no eyes to see. OFF OFF OFF. So tired but so happy. I am going to keep playing my favourite game till i cant run anymore. Tomolo i am going to swim with huiqi they den ball again. Hahaha so long never go out with them so excited.
I so going to ball till i cant run.

2008-11-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

STACKERS WON TODAY!!! GOOD JOB!!! GOOD JOB!!! GOOD JOB EVERYONE!!! i know that this few week everyone has been working very hard to break the curse of losing. now we did it. together as a team. people good job and now there is good food waiting for us. yummy. another battle is coming on our way on Wednesday. so everyone dun get injury, eat well sleep well and rest well okay!!!

someone words broke my heart today. i feel like a pest being chase away. something is beyond my control like the words that might hurt me deeply even though it might be unintentional to other like they just say it without actually realise it will hurt. your words hurt me. coming out from a friend it hurt asking me to leave first. i feel like the cause of the delay and i know i am the cause but that is not Wat i want too. i dun wan to delay any of you but i dun have a choice, no like i have a choice to choose not to be injured. but whatever it is. is over i will not be upset anymore after all i know is from unintentional thought but i am really very sad cause i thought we were close.

2008-11-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

wat have happen between us? why is there a sudden distance between us? wat is the thing i had done that draw you guys so far away from me out of the sudden? at first i thought this will be over in a few days so i waited for them, giving them time to think but it has been a week from now. wat have actually happen? i really hope that you all can tell me. so at least i know wat is going now and maybe we can solve this all together instead being in this situation whereby nothing is done. all in a weird position.
if nature will take it course to smooth this out
i hope that nature will take the course faster cause i dun feel good

2008-11-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! nsl practical test tomolo!!!
i am feeling damn nervous now larx when i was happily playing hotel626 in the afternoon and skipping lecture. Really not till the last moment i wont feel the pressure man!!! kill me!!! sudddenly i everything also forget. Anyway i pass all the level in hotel 626. At first i thought iwas super scary larx but not i dun even feel a pitch of fear in me maybe because i was playing with liyana and aiysha in the noon instaed of screaming we ended up laughing like crazy. causing glares around us. Anyway good luck to me on my practical just dun fail can le.
PSS!!! THERE ISNT A NEED TO SING, JUST PLAY WITH YOUR MOUSE WILL DO

2008-10-21T21:57:00.017+08:00

18/10/2008
Hari Raya visiting with my classmates!!! And I got 3 green packets!!! Yippy yippy yeah!!! And we have taken a lot of pictures. A lot really alot no joking 176 plus of them can you imagine with credits to Farah's Nikon camera .

This is me. Enjoying this chocolate cup cake( i think that should be the name ba) @ the first house(Fiza's sisters house).
Photo taking

After we have ours Delicious meal, and this is what happen. Everyone fall asleep! REMINDER: THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST HOUSE!!!

Finally Fiza is back and again more photos!!!Nice cake right!!! this cake is made for the october babies !!! Actually the most improtant thing is the wording is my creations. The bright orange colour one worx!!!

Then the next house eqa's house!!!

then moving on to the next house farah's house.

then followed by cake cutting for october babies.

and this is me the brithday bunny for all the babies.

next we are moving off to liyana's house.

due to the long traveling time. Ann has fallen asleep. and so is the rest of them.
this is when i just wake up very unwillingly, cause next house has reach.

moving on again! sending vivian and karena to their house. crazy shots to kill time.

last house fiza's brother house.

and off to home.

after all this i am super duper tired larx!!!

But some stupid feeling got stir up while leaving the last house @ jurong west. jurong west a place where there were many memories. that is the place she stay, the place where i used to go very often to find her. traces of her and me can be seen on every street i passed. i really dunnoe what to do. i wanted to keep in touch with her but every time i do so i will fall for her again. so i made up mind delete her contact and avoid the places where i know i will see her.but still no use ANN JIA YOU!!! YOU ARE DOING WELL NOW!!! SO JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!!

2008-10-07T16:55:00.003+08:00

I HATE BEING ACCUSED.
I will never forget wat had happened to me during this attachment at Tan Tock Seng Ward 9D by this staff nurse GINA. My patient went down for abdominal tap and came back to the general ward. So when i was clearing the smu of my cubical, I clear for her as well (600mls) . However i didnt know that that was a abdominal tap cause nothing was pass to me during the report. What was pass is that patent is going down for some procedure. When she was back wat I saw was just urine bag being hang. So both the AN (Fiza) and me thought that is catheter cause is has been complaining unable to pass urine. So after clearing in the sewage room, I was surprise to see her bag almost half full again. So I told my AN cause is very adnormal.Then Endang another SN pass by and heard us, told us that that is not catheter is abdominal tap den we realised wat it really is. So clever me who manage abdominal tap before when to ASK GINA THE STAFF NURSE IN CHARGE OF MY TEAM, HOW MUCH TO CLAMP. SHE FUCKING WALK AWAY. Around 1334 before passing over to afternoon staff kind me went to drain again. This time round is 2200mls. So when is 1400, they were passing report I went as well. Fucking shock to hear her say that the drainage was to be clamp @ 1500mls. So I voice out and told her how much is already drain. She den claim there is nothing to do with her cause i was to drain and never report. So i went to clamp the tubing. By then there is already some more in the bag already. I den say watever i drain is being written down black and white in the intake output chart and i ask you how much to drain before clamping, you simply walk a away. So i dun think it was my fault moreover you have not pass down any information to your own AN about it as well. we only know that it was an abdominal tap when Endang told us. So is your fault. AND THIS IS NOT THE WORST THING. When sister ask the next day, she actually ask Fiza to help her testify this incident by saying i was the one who never report to her and tha AN how much was drain.
CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHERE IS THE ETHIC OF THIS NURSE. HOW CAN SHE BECOME ONE. I have been very angry with her since early in the morning when i told her that patient Bp is 240/100, and yet her reaction is " orh, nevermind patient haven eat medicine." and ask me to feed. instead to double checking the reading. And the medicine was being pounded and left by the bedside since 7AM when i start work till 9 plus when i take parameters. excellent right.
ASKING A STUDENT TO TAKE UP THE MISTAKE SHE HAD MADE INSTEAD OF LEARNING IT.
I am so sorry that i never take it up. and you are sooooooo wrong to pick me. cause if i ever give in to it then i will not be ANN. sooooo wrong to pick me to bully.

2008-08-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

Someone left the team yesterday. Now 1989 group is left with 5. I watch you while you are talking about you in nation you sound so excitied. How you do in the team, how are the people there and what you have learn you look so happy. Haha i am happy for you too. Even though I will miss you, everyone in the team will all miss you. Hey girl, gonna work hard okay? Promise to meet out okay? Hmmm... I am missing you already.

I am having paper later on. Sianx... Nothing is going into the mind right now.

2008-08-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
TODAY I EAT CARB CARB
BLACK PEPPER CARB ROCKS!!!!

Si ah toot, family stuff might be tough on you but you must hold on okay!!!
Hold on strong, just do the part you can. Cause you are doing very well. Gd job.

2008-08-05T16:35:00.002+08:00

郭靜 - 知道
作詞：韋禮安作曲：韋禮安

她讓你憔悴許多她讓你不知所措
她一舉一動你不停的對我說
我微笑傾聽你說我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我

她比我多了什麼讓你願意耐心等候 wooh

我想知道她讓你癡心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同但是我卻不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多可是我總換不了你的心動

你讓我憔悴很多你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走
她不經意的走過你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒

她比我多了什麼讓你願意耐心等候 wooh

我想知道她讓你癡心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同但是我卻不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多可是我總換不了你的心動 hey yeah~~
wooh~~

我知道了她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我在你心中沒有她多

2008-08-05T15:55:00.005+08:00

Finally got time to go online to see see look look around others blog. Suddenly almost most of the blog that i know suddenly all become private. So weird there must be a "private" wind around blowing!!! Thats why all de blog become private. Mine also be come private!!! Cute right!!!
Sorry si ah toot!!! Never go play badminton yesterday. Hahaha cause i go kbox. Anyway i finally like go all de way down to ttsh to summit me bonding form. And the person call me so fast but not to arrange for my interview but only tell me they got my summit-ion. But still very fast larx!!! Si Ah Toot Ah!!! i am so glad after reading you blog, yes it maybe hard. but you comfirm can pass de. You are doing very good right now!!! Just do wan you think is right, friends around you will support you de!!! Anyway manda found this new song and brought alots of memory back to me!!! 郭靜 - 知道 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjMQZGS3l_k

2008-07-29T05:08:00.000+08:00

Something must have been seriously wrong with me, i am still awake right now at this moment!!! Is morning 5am already but i haven gone to bed yet!!! Anyway I am having retest later on pharmacology!!! Good luck ann!!! You better pass this time round. And i found this picture in eqa's lappy that we take quite some time ago.

WHICH EVER VIRUS/ BACTERIA WHO IS KEEPING MY VOICE BETTER RETURN THEM TO ME BEFORE I START CURSING YOU ALL WITH DIARRHEA!!!!

2008-07-23T13:03:00.003+08:00

So busy with life this few days!!! Bike practical, oncoming retest and practical test!!!! Monday was shit totally shit!!! My PSP was SPOIL!!!! and i dunnoe why i was dammn sad larx!!! NO MORE COLL APES FOR ME !!!! NO MORE CHALLENGE WITH MY CLASSMATE ANYMORE!!! But at least there is still one good thing that day, i pass my first bike practical 1.01. Riding was fun super super!!! Although, i keep falling!!! But is soooo fun. I am super scared larx!! Cause i scare i will fall down but when i started to travel faster and faster, i was super high super excited larx!!! everything seem so simple larx!!!! But it is very scary with you fall down !!! super duper scare!!! Luckily that day was raining then need to wear raincoat even thought very hot but at least when i fall down my clothes is still clean!!! Hahaha!! Cant wait for the next practical!!!! And hope that the repair of my PSP is not too ex !!!

2008-07-09T11:46:00.003+08:00

2008-07-07T00:17:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I last went online to blog. Attachment was tiring. But holiday @ Timon was fun. Indeed it was damn fun. Snorkeling but too bad I do not have a diving license if not i believe the view of scuba diving will be even nicer. The people there told me that the view of the coral reef will change slightly as monsoon seasons passes. Isnt it amazing. And the best part is I saw a baby shark!!!!! It is only a feet long so small. At first when the guide told me that he saw 4 baby sharks, I was shocked man!!! You know SHARKS lehx!!! SHARKS eat human!!!! But he assured us that these sharks here wont hurt. So I went down and give it a try(CAUSE IS ACTUALLY MY FIRST TIME SNORKELING AND I CANT REALY SWIM). The feeling was great, all the fish swim so close to you that you can fel them passes your leg but the water was really salty. so salty that it actually stink my eyes causing my eyes to tear so much that i got a flu. Too bad the photo that i taken has a bit problem with uploading but I will do my best to upload them as soon as possible. And my hoilday has ended is school again. Sianx.....

2008-06-02T22:08:00.005+08:00

this few days is the most horrible days in my life!!!

everything seems to be upside down of my life!!!

everything!!!

wat do you wan from me

i have got enough of you

stop throwing things that is last min to me

how can you expect me to cover up very thing for you

i have already enough stress recently already

study, loves and basically everything

i have tried my best already

i dunno any 14s how do you expect me to find them and everything is so last min

you gave less than a day time how do you expect me to do it

and stop saying that i give up before i tried

i have already pouring in my heart and soul calling everyone that i can to reach for help le

wat do you still wan me to do

if there isnt anyone wat can i do...

this kind of thing is beyond my control that i can do but you expect me to do it for you

how fair is it for me

why is it that you doubt every of my move

why cant you just appericate wat i have done

how i wish that i can run away from all the pain in my heart

why is it so hard to love, why is love so painful

is already bad enough that no one can help

so just stop rubbing it

2008-05-31T01:14:00.003+08:00

NOTING SEEMS TO CURE ME!!!
NOT MY DRINK!!!
NOTHING!!!
I NEED TO MOVE ON!!!
I NEED TO STAND UP!!!
I NEED TO BE STRONG!!! EVEN WHILE I AM ALONE IN THE NIGHT

2008-05-30T03:31:00.003+08:00

GOD MY TEARS JUST CANT STOP FLOWING

AND MY HEART HURTS

LOOKS LIKE I WONT BE SLEEPING AGAIN

PS: MOVE ON!!!

2008-05-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

so long never update le!!!! Busy busy and busy everyday also very busy!!!! Last Saturday was my cousin's wedding everything is so nice larx!!!!!! expect for the fact that we need to wake up early( you know is like Saturday a day for me to sleep late but have to wake up early) okay okay back to topic. The morning ceremony is impressive enough le larx!!!! Standard!!!! all those drink tea larx and stuff But later on, after all those thing the impressive stuff is the actually haven sign their marriage certificate, i always think that they are suppose to sign le den hold all this things de but not for their so special right. my cousin specially invitited the people from ROM to help them hold the signing paper at the pool side in their condo. the whole place was so nicely decorated with ribbons and balloons and stuff larx!!! like in drama show like that larx!!!! soooo sweetttt!!!!! den at night the wedding dinner was held at a hotel in town area (fucking rich larx!!!) but the most improtant thing is the food there is soooo nice and the serving portion was BIG!!!! i stop eatting at the fifth course already larx!!!! TOooo full to even drink the red wine ... so wasted... if i know is going to taste so nice i will make sure i strave myself a few day before going so that i can swallow all de food in !!!!!!!! WAHAHAHA!!!!! and one more thing the wedding gift that they have at the dinner was so niceeeeee... A HANDPHONE STRAP OF A COUPLE!!!!

soooo kawaiii!!!!!!!!!!!! and i forget one very improtant thing because my cousin is actually from the army soooooooooo at the start of the ceremony you know those drama the army holding sword the the newly wed will walk through it so nice right ... ya that's all

2008-05-27T15:44:00.004+08:00

new photo taken with this current class

2008-05-18T01:34:00.004+08:00

so many things happen this whole week

firstly in school, JS and me. P08 and us. thank god that everything has so call finally reach to an end however cuts and still cuts even though we had talk it out but what is done cannot be undone that feeling within us will always be there. AND I REALLY HATE THAT JS

today in under 16 team

conflicts and politics

argument and dislike

but all this make me realise something

my under 16 love each and other alots!!!!!!!

and i am so happy and proud of it.

TO: MY LOVELY AND CUTE BUNCH OF UNDER 16

teaching you guys make me really tired

there is alot of consideration i need to take, every move i take effect everyone of you, which never happen in the past cause i do things the way i feel like it should be done

no happy= dun do

happy = do lorx

but now, things are different

happy = do lorx

no happy = also need to do

cause i must be responsible to every one of you, and this responsible is a huge one to me

however, I am really happy that i had taken this responsibility

even though alot of time i really feel like backing up

like just give up on you guys, give up coaching

but at least for now at this very moment, i think that whatever that i had done is worth it

i know that i maybe very fierce during training

scolding you all and stuff

but deep down inside it hurts

i don't know why

"scold scold scold"

but then when i see you guys carrying out the punishment, especially when i knew that all of you are so drained out because of the training i felt so sad and deep down inside i know that all of you will be cursing me but i really hope that this will make you guys learn is for you own good, i will not gain the stamina, or skills that you learn during game but these will carry on with you for every game that you play and as you progress to under 18

few more weeks before you all go down there to show others what you have got

so lets bear with each other and the training that we have got to attend

"DO YOU GUYS WANT TO WIN"

"LET'S GET HARD WORKING NOW"

"AND LET'S GET OURSELVES IN TOP 4"

"AND LET'S WORK HAND IN HAND TOGETHER"

"CAUSE I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU"

I AM SOOOOOO SORRYYYYYY!!!!!

2008-05-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today I did something that I feel really bad towards someone. Of course is not a crime like stealing and stuff...... But I have disrespected or have taken someone for grunted who I really respect by playing a trick/doing something stupid like playing DARE game. At first I was kind of piss of with how the person actually handle this situation like calling someone else and telling it to other... You know after all, is between us but I WAS TOTALLY WRONG!!!! I was super guilty after that larx!!! When I ask that someone else what actually did the one who I respect told that her I REALISED SOMETHING!!!! You know what I thought I was someone like "just" friend of yours not important at all but instead of being disgusted by the things that I have done. You did something that really surprise like "caring" for me asking if i am okay a not!!!! And only then that I put myself into your shoe. Like if I was you I am sure that I will not only be irritated but to also piss off, worried for someone but it turn out to be a stupid and childish trick of mine. I am really gald that I have made a friend like you. Thanks for your forgiveness. (" Forget my childish act okay? Promise to you that this will be the only and last time i will do this kind of things to you.")

2008-04-29T21:25:00.004+08:00

PICTURES AND MEMORIES

2008-04-29T20:03:00.002+08:00

Lousy body!!! I am not recovering at all. I have been sick since last week but till now de flu is still not gone yet!!! Damn irritating feel like cutting the nose away!!! And i think i am really a weako now larx!!! Yesterday np training, wao lao!!!only warm up only i already have a few episode of black out!!! I think I really need to start running before i will have asthma attack while walking larx!!! Shit man!!! I think this year I can prepare to warm the bench for de whole season already le larx!!!! WAAWAA!!! I want to play larx!!! So I am determind to train hard!!! And I WANT DE NGEE ANN JACKET!!!! It so nice larx!!!

I think I have started to like my new class and new nsl teacher. This teacher is super horny larx!!! 2 hours of practical but only 45mins of study 1hour and 15mins of gossip larx!!! style right!!! hahahaha!!!! NSL is the only class we can relax larx!!! Other class is like so stress larx!!! And there is one thing i am so sure about larx!!! That JOSEPHINE KOH IS A BITCH!!! this Fxxxing bitch i hate her larx!!! she thinks that we only got her module to do!!! when we have got her lesson like two times a week, she only manage to tell us we have project due on friday!!! stupid old women right!!! too old to remember we got project assignment is it!!! i hate her!!! MAY YOUR TEETH ROT AND DECAY MAN!!!

2008-04-15T00:12:00.003+08:00

I went down to SBC to watch jayne's match today.THE DARWIN REFEREE IS SO BIAS!!! little bit little bit then blow whistle so irritating!!! then when singapore player get the ball lehx, they push larx! pull hand larx! all also no foul!!! This match sucks larx!!! super unfair!!! or are they blind or what!!! super angry lehx!!! go down specially to watch the game then end up the match was sssssoooooooo unfair!!! ANGRY!~!!

P24 I ssssoooooo misssssssss you all larx!!! First day of school only i already got project to do larx!!! Life in year 2 is so sad larx!!! No one to laugh at my jokes!!! No one to pei me eat!!! No one to pei me scroll from lectures to lectures!!! No one to pei me cruse that joesphine koh!!! Everything also need to do alone!!! I am really envy you all at least you all can still meet in lecture and study during exam but now even my lesson and the topics i study is different with you all this time round if i really need help i will be so lost larx!!! NO MORE ALICE TO ANSWER MY QUESTIONS!!! NO MORE JENNIFER TO PEI ME GO SCHOOL!!! NO MORE SHARON TO COMPANY STUDY!!! NO MORE ADELINE TO ASK ME STUDY WITH HER!!! EQA, WE MUST BE STRONG OKAY!!! WE MUST STUDY HARD TOGETHER CAUSE WE CAN NOW ONLY DEPEND ON EACH OTHER!!! OF COURSE, LIYANA AND KARENA TOO!!!!

2008-04-11T23:51:00.006+08:00

Thanks girls!!! I had a wonderful time yesterday!!! These gathering is one of those which I won't want to forget, be'cos there are you girls which make it special. JENNIFER, thanks so much for the chalet you are always the one who thinks for others before yourself and is because of you, there is these wonderful memories of the gathering, I know you have put in alot of effort into these thing cause you just simply love everyone of us and I want to take this chance to thank you specially for the care you have given me in the past year. I know that I had always been a very lazy person in terms of school and friendship, I was never the one who will take a big step out in doing thing but even though I am this lazy you had never left me behind. Thanks for the care and concern and I really love you. Thank you so much. ADELINE, the girl horx always bully me, always very xiong, remember there's once, i had a very big misunderstanding with her over the grades of a project, that moment i really hated her, hated her so much that i decided that i will treat her invisible when i see her in school ( but this will never happen cause i always forget it the next day) but she is one person that i had to bow to . She always had a mind of her own( I SAY "NO" MEANS "NO" ). Despite of her "xiong" look she one very caring person too!!!!She always wake me up cause i am always late and she seemed to have super power, cause she always seems to be able to look through my thought and predict my move. Thanks you girl for waking me up and nagging at me. And i will never forget you slap me!!!!! SHARON, little miss chatterbox never fail to make me laugh ( MAYI!!! WALK FASTER IF NOT HUI BEI ZHAI XI ) hahaha i know i leg short so walk very slow.This girl is also one of them that i need to thank her very much too. She always help me in my school work, help to revise those work that i miss out. Without her challenge with alice, i wont get motive to study harder too, so that maybe one day i can win her and alice. Thanks for remembering me while we travel around the school, asking me to join in together so that i am not left out. ALICE, this girl i am not in very good terms with her. Because of our character we always get a bit of upset with each other but never fight yet. hahaha dun worry i know what you express is your view of thing and not thing hash that is meant to hurt someone even though so time i will get also get irritated by the words that you comment on me but all those words never stay longer than a day in me. It always come and go and thanks for your teaching had made me done better in my exam.EQA, girl with amazing determination of resisting herself from eating. how can you resist the worlds' best enjoyment. so glad that we are in the same class. dun worry i will stay hard de. den we can all study together.

Things are going to be hard for us to be apart. I love the way we are now together. I love that bonding and the time we had together in school. But dun need to worry i believe we will still keep in contact with each other. Cause i believe it hard to get great ppl like you all in poly so i will "bao bei" you all de

2008-04-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

GOD!!!! Finally this attachment has come to a end!!!
but DAMN!!! i am so bored... after so many weeks of work in hopsital a suddden stop has made my life so empty out of a sudden!!! HELL!!! anyone free to entertain me this week!!! one more week before school opens!!! i need to enjoy myself to de fullest but no one is free!!! so anyone who see this give me a call ok!!! lets go shopping, ball or anything??? cause i am so bored at home

2008-03-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

ARGHXXXXX!!!!!!!
LIFE IN HOPSTIAL IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!
STUPID CASE STUDY!!!!!
STUPID PATIENT!!!!!!
STUPID LI POH SHAN!!!!!!
KEEP ASKING ME TO DO THIS DO THAT !!!!!!
ARGHXXXX!!!!! I HATE THIS ATTACHMENT!!!!!

2008-02-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

boring!!!
singapore is so small no place to go at all
and exam is coming on de 18th
the same day as yuna birthday
hahaha now with this super duper reason in my hand
i can say need to study cannot pei her den can save money dun need to buy present for her le
wat a good idea!!!! okay i am soooo going to use this excuse man!!!
(the section above is no meant for koh yu na to read pls proceed to the next section pls)

working sucks man especially when you are working with my brother and his "girlfriend"
hate the both of them specially during working, one thinks that she is very expert in that field ordering others around another thinks that he already master the key of the work start telling others wat is right and wat is wrong. without realising that both of them had already irriate the people around them and still think that they are the roses among the torns. the most irriating part is they both only recieve. how can one expect people to help them when one dun help other first. dun they know that the key is to help one another.
horrible him and her

2008-01-31T07:14:00.000+08:00

I HAVE DONE A GOOD DEED TODAY!!!
JOIN ME IN SAVING LIFE TODAY!!!
BY DONATING YOUR BLOOD TO THOSE WHO NEED THEM!!!
Like others donating blood has always given me an impression of "pain" but after when i have tried it wasn't that bad. I cannot say that it does not hurt at all but compare to the pain for a few second it is worth more than gold as these blood you have donated can actually save some one's life. Jennifer, Jason and I went together for the donation but i was the only one who is able to donate. Intense feeling shoot up in me immediately as i was my first time and alone. During the process the only time that i feel pain was when they were administering the local painkiller so that the rest of the proceed will be painless. Compare the pain of having a new ear hole and this, this is much more pain-less than your ear hole piercing. Lastly, I am so proud of myself!!!!!!

2008-01-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

UGLY MISUNDERSTANDING
stupid!!!!
yuna and me quarrel again
she angry cause wait too long for the basketball and think she thought that i was very unhappy with the cab fee
i was angry because she sounded so piss off at the phone when we (jinhui n me) got off at the wrong place
shorting out time: i was angry because of the cab fee okay? i was already not feeling good because the uncle keep on anyhow turn and make us go round and round and finally when we caught sight of a sign of nee soon central community center and alight we found out we got to de wrong one. So it not our fault due to de long time taken is because there is too many CC around your is nee soon east cc but we didn't know of that. Hate all this ugly misunderstanding larx!!!
IS NOT MY FAULT! IS JUST SOME STUPID MISUNDERSTANDING!
WORSE OF ALL IS THAT STUPID HAND AND SHOULDER OF MINE!!!!
this irritating shoulder of mine have been giving me problem since i reach home yesterday dun know why out of the sudden it started aching causing me to stay awake the whole night with tears on my eye plus another thing is so happen so that the next day is Tuesday a long long day for me from morning 6 need to wake up till 6 in the evening den finish lesson not long ma
WISH THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY SOON !!! CAUSE I WANT TO PLAY ON SATURDAY GOT 3 ON 3 GAME AT SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC THINK IS GOING TO BE REALLY FUN!!!

2008-01-29T04:50:00.000+08:00

i am going to die already

that stupid audition game is driving me crazy

so irritating!!!!

i just cant differentiate the left and the right

arghx!!!!

but my twin's cat is so cute!!!!

isnt she cute?

her name is princess

pretty isnt it but like her name

wish i got a cat too

too bad mummy dun like it if not i would have plenty of them at home already

MY CLASSMATES!!! ( N I LOVE THEM )

2008-01-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

Ade n me (super cute)

Ade's birthday party (1)

Ade's birthday party (2)

Ade's birthday party (3)

Sharon and me
Three boring person

At Ade's birthday
different view

creactivity
Kitty and me
WOOO!!! SEXY!!!
threesome
passing game

alice and me @ beach
posing
jennifer and me
ade sitting on me
jason and me

class photo

keep still
on the way there
thousand hand jennifer

acting cute
beauty pose

in de water

relaxing
it is cute

shy shy look
human stackoh!!!!!!

2008-01-27T14:33:00.000+08:00

something bad happen again
i am very sad and disappointed in the way one does thing
i really dun understand why must this been done
is it to pls someone else by making me a joke ma
the way and tone you say it is like so "never mind" like that
but for me to hear it is the more "never mind" means the more it came out from your heart
you say it like no body business
and wants me to not be sad about it cause is only a joke
but indeed your words have hurt me the most
and your action show how much a friend i mean to you
will you do this to other?
or am i the only one that you know i wont mind even if you does this
i know there is times that i am mean to you
i also know that you do treat me good in some ways that me myself dun even realise
but why is it that sometimes i feel like i am a nobody to you that wont even bother or care
is my existence so lightly to you all
i have tried i really have tried to forget and forego this
and i will
but i dun know how many times can i do it
i ask myself why didnt i react at the spot so that you know what you have done has hurt me
but i really dun know wat kind of reaction should i have at the moment
cry, i have done that le but you never realise that i was crying
leave, i left straight after you fall asleep but you never realise as well
so what should ?
can you pls tell me the reason why ?

2008-01-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

TWO DAY MC!!!!

YEAH NO NEED TO GO SCHOOL

but being sick is really not very good

whole day stay at home, sleep de whole day
den whole body ache like mad
got some one admired me lehx!!!!

shy shy!!!

even though is de person recongise wrongly but i still very happy

so happy

de person thought i paly ball very good

but i am not de one

maybe i got de pro face ba!!!!

hahaha joking

i think anyone who see this is going to vomit like mad

but i still very happy

dun care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i really HAD A GREAT TIME WITH STACKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!

2008-01-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

finally got time to update my blog
so busy during de holiday
hahaha
OH MIND GOD!!!!!
i am so happy the other day larx!!!
know wat!!! know wat!!!
my idol gave me a biscuit!!!!
opps!!!! shy!!!!
hahaha
and stckers chalet is so fun larx...
OH MIND GOD!!!!
i love stackers

2007-12-09T15:42:00.000+08:00

stupid sunday!!!!
today is a bad bad day cause i kana pang seh like mad larx...
i only wan to go see handphone ma!!!!
one ask her say can can can
now say wan pei boyfriend lehx...
always like that lorx...
your words cant be trusted
i hate it so much!!!!
another also say untill so nice plan untill so will go where where
den in the end also say cannot
i hate you all larx!!!!
finally got one day free
but these friends are shit
they never pei you when you need them!!!!!
i hate you all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-15T13:33:00.000+08:00

MISS MY COM SO MUCH LARX!!!!
finally got to blog le!!!!
school and work are so busy right now that i dun even have time to go online anymore
exam plus promotion in my work is really stressing my like hell now larx
but never mind i will work till i collapse just for my result and MONEY!!!!
of course not forgetting my favourite BASKETBALL
hahaha!~!!!
wish i can play with my idol soon

TO: my fellow stackers mate
do take care of yourself okay? game season is back again!!!!
train hard but do not injury yourself okay!!!!
everyone in de team is just as important as other
so make sure you all are in de best state ok
and we are playing against Amercian school this Saturday
so let go there and have fun and joy ok

TO: twins
i know that you are facing alot of problem right now
dun stress yourself too much ok
if you need someone to lie on or talk to we are always there
jayne avis yuna me and all de stackers ppl
we will all stand by you
so just come to us
seeing you like that really make me so down
so i can do nothing to help but if talking it out will lighten your burden
i will always be there
promise okay?

2007-10-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

SAD CASE!!!! I AM SICK AGAIN LARX!!!!
i hate my body larx!!!
damn fucking weak keep on getting sick
and that irriating nose of mine is under serious consideration of chopping it off
"stress school work" + "poor body condition" = "life in hell"
damn that CELL MOLECULAR BIOLOGY EVERY WEEK GOT TEST
WORSE STILL DE NOTES OF THAT MODULE IS NOT EVEN OUT YET
GOT TEST LE
it is only two weeks of school and i had like taken five tests
and proudly fail four out of five
REALLY NEED TO GET INTO SERIOUS STUDYING!!!!!
ANYONE WAT PEI ME TO KILL THEIR BRAIN CELLS ?

there's always sunshine after rain
so will my sunshine be back to bring me smile?

2007-10-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

FINLAY STACKERS IS STARTING TO TRAIN AGAIN LE!!!
SO HAPPY!!!!
STACKER STACKERS STACKERS
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU
GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so sad also because of my selfish act i cause pain in someone i care so much
she is there when i face problem with my team. First one to message me when i am in de team. But i have say thanks to her yet. Before things get sour. sorry i am really so. hope things will just get better.

2007-10-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

I AM FEELING SO DOWN NOW!!!!
but i dunnoe why
life been so boring
on my last week of holidays
i soooo wan to play basketball
soooo evny those who are working sooo hard for their ivp
but i am sooo slacking around

i wan to play basketball
anyone wan to play with me?

2007-10-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

boring!!!
nothing to do!!!
AVIS FASTER RECOVER OK!!!
IVP IS GETTING CLOSER!!!
those who are playing IVP
jiayou jiayou jiayou worx!!!!

2007-10-01T05:28:00.000+08:00

looking through de photo we had taken
i really miss YOU

de you that will take photo with me regardless of de place

de you that loves to look style

de you that loves to bit things

de you that are cool

de you with sunny part

de you with you cute part

de you that love to shop

de you that are playful that you are

theres more that i know you are
but things just fall apart

we used to go for a trip all by ourselves
we used to dig money for k box session
we used to stay in de same house
we used to school together
we used to work together
we used to share ours souls and tears together
we used to eat de thing we like together
we used to laugh together
we used to be buddy that others envy
we used to read each other mind
you know how i feel even you are not looking
you know when i will tear when i haven even blink my eyes

but we are now friends that are only connected by memories
we never quarrel
we never fight
but we drift apart
i dunnoe why this will happen to us

you say we are too busy
too busy to even drop me a message
too busy to even have dinner together

maybe life is like that old things will be replace by new things
i will be replace by your new friends
and you will be replace too

but that is not i what i wanted
all i wanted is you to saty where you are
and i will find you
no matter where you are i will find you

cause you are de only best friend i have ever had

2007-09-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVIS !!!!!
MISSY REDDDDDDYYYY!!!!!

YOU ARE A LOSER!!! ONE BOTTLE OF BEER AND YOU ARE DOWN!!!
HAHAHA!!!! BUT YOUR BIRTHDAY COUNT DOWN WAS FUN LARX!!!!
JUMPPING INTO DE POOL WAS DE BEST THING AFTER A DRINK I JUST COOL OFF EVERYTHING!!!!
ENJOY YOURSELF OK!!!

AND ALSO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!!!!!

2007-09-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

STACKERS YOU ALL ROCKS!!!!!
GOOD GAME TODAY!!!!
WON NYP TODAY!!!!
KEEP ON JIA YOU OK!!!!

i didn't get to play again today
maybe i should have just got used to it ba
if that is so why do i still feel so sad
if leaving de team will make me feel better
will i choose this path in the end
what should i do?
it hurts so much

2007-09-21T23:10:00.001+08:00

FINALLY IS WEEKEND!!!!!
NO MORE EARLY MORNING!!!!!
AND IS BALLING TIME!!!!!

JIA YOU! JIA YOU! JIA YOU!
STACKERSSSSSS!!!!!!!!

2007-09-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY GOT DE TIME TO SIT IN FRONT OF DE COM!!!!!!!!!!!!
since Monday my life is in a total disrupt!!!!!!
normally is to sleep @ 5/6am in de morning
NOW!!! need to wake up @4am
and de thing to do is soooooo many!!!!
i didn't even have time to go to tea room for a slip of water
running here and there de whole time
and de worse of all is de weather is horrible
i am totally stick to my uniform by de mid of de day
another de so call " SISTER " of de ward expect that he is a guy is totally unbelievably irritating
keep on ordering us around doing things like moving de chairs and bundling up de curtains
ppl wan take record taken vital signs dun let me record ask me to move chairs
and scold me for de things that i am not even in charge of like de cubical
in my cubical how i know who are de patients funny lehx
but at least i had tried feeding by tube even though i got scolded for doing it cause is not in my learning expectant ions but i am accompanied by a staff wat!!!!
if that is chance that we can per-experience stuff that we are going to learn very soon isn't that good
at least you got a bit of touch of it wat!
but i am sure i am getting hands on de stuff that we need to perform!!!
like my bP taking are now very fast and accurate and i will not forget to chart my intake output chart
my friends say i am crazy cause i actually say i kind of like attachment more den school expect for de long hours that is totally unbearable
anyway i and in respiratory medicine and cardio-vascular ward
SO COOL RIGHT!!!!!
but two of them had passed way since Monday
HEARTBROKEN!!!!!
even they can not from my cubical but i still feel de sadness inside me

life and death is just so fast
you will never know when is it coming
you will never have enough time @ the moment of death
but even that is so
death is a nature course
which everyone will experience
so appreciate wat you have now
keep de ones around you happy
so that when death is creeping near you
you will feel ready and be able to let go

2007-09-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

I AM FEELING SO WARM NOW!!!!
so tired!!! cause went yuna house to ton yesterday...
and i completed a 500 piece puzzle in 3 hours time
SO PRO RIGHT?
hahaha!!! of course!!!
and today we are suppose to wake up for training @ 9 am
but ME AVIS YUNA all overslept as usual
and made JAYNE they all wait for us
hahaha but at least we still got to train
despite of the rain in de morning
we learn 2 formation today
"ASSHOLE" n "MOTION"
sound very retarded but actually
i must say is quite good
so we will try to use it next time we play
den we ball de whole day dinner and head home
all of us were burnt in de sun
especially YUNA!!!!!!!!!!
she looking like a walking tomato
RED n ROUND!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i gave mummy a W.W.J.D BAND
so now AVIS's n JAYNA's ARE ALL GIVEN BY ME!!!!!
WAT A SWEET ME!!!!!!
i got burnt too in de sun
dun understand lehx...
so dark le still will get burnt now i really look like an INDIAN LADY

LOVE is a complicated feeling on a certain person.
LOVE will turn people into an idiot.
LOVE will cause you to be emotionality unstable.
LOVE will cause you to be blind.
LOVE will cause you to be super sensitive.
LOVE cause a lot of money.
IF IT'S SO WHY DO PEOPLE STILL FALL IN LOVE????

2007-09-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

REPORTING IS 7:05 AM NOW!!!!!
and i am still wide awake while my TWINS n AVIS are both sleeping like pig now @ my living room. i think i am really going to die soon le after long day of balling @ yew tee cc and fun exciting K-BOX SESSION. i am still so not affected by it.

K-BOX SESSION was damn fun larx...
even though is only three of us but I was really damn fun
cause i discovered that my chinese is can make it de!!!!!!!
every time i go K SESSION with others, they confirm will correct my chinese this time is i correct other chinese so SHOIK!!!!
these two "kang dang" are so funny!!!!!
AVIS : i know , i know, i know how to sing this song!!!!
( end up you still need to help her fill in de blank )
but we three found out that chinese songs are much more easier than english songs
i am totally idiot in singing them
always too slow, cannot get de timing right at all
but for chinese song is much more easier as long as got de tune right can le
agar agar can liaox....
dun need so ma fan!!!!!

BALLING SESSION @# YEW TEE CC
we are suppose to meet @ 4pm to ball
but we ended up reaching @ de court at only 5 plus
hahaha but can de consider early le lorx...
if not normally will be even worse lorx...
but 1 surprise thing home u ppl also got come
dunnoe why but i can say afterall it wasnt bad larx...
dun have really bad cheap playing around
even though i must say we really play untill very rough
but there is 1 thing that is super irritating
there is a guy there who has " NO GENTLE MAN SPIRIT", "A TOTAL SORE LOSER","FAT n UGLY"
PLS LORX!!!!! I , MS ANN TAY XUAN WEN WALK OVER TO ASK YOU ALL WAN TO PLAY ALTERNATE IS A PRIVILEGE TO YOU ALL OK!!! YOU ALL PLAY THREE TEAM WE PLAY THREE TEAM NEED TO WAIT VERY LONG WAT!!!! THATS WHY WILL SUGGEST WE PLAY ONCE YOU ALL PLAY ONCE !!! DUN APPERICATE CAN SAY DUN WAN DUN GIVE ME A SORE LOSSER ANSWER!!!! I WONT KILL YOU ALL FOR SAYING "NO" IS JUST A SUGGESTTION!!!! BUT IF YOU GIVE ME ATTITUBE DEN YOU MESS WITH DE WRONG PERSON LE!!!! I QUAN YOU BETTER USE YOUR BRAIN THINK FIRST BEFORE YOU TALK!!! DEN AFTER YOU DONE SOMETHING OS SAY SOMETHING LE DEN KANA SCOLDING FROM ME LA DEN SAY SORRY BY THAT TIME IS TOO LATE LE !!!SO JUST BE NICE AND SAY "NO" NEXT TIME !!!!!
and TEHTEH came down and play with us too so happy!!!!!
is been ages since we meet and play together
so miss her and WENYAN too!!!!!
even though she never play but ya so long never see
really very happy to see her once again!!!!

YAWNS!!!!
i think i should get so sleep too!!!!
good morning i am going to bed le !!!!!

2007-09-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

BORINGGGGGGGG!!!!!!
today i stay @ home de whole day larx...
suppose to meet TOOT today de but
she never call me lehx!!!
so in de end
i stay @ home and watch FIGHTING FISH de whole day
that show is a love story
with kind of happy ending
male lead died but female lead had baby
and live a happy life

to someone i always support:
i know you are very depressed now but i cannot do anything to make you feel better. other den a pass-by to drop a care message in your blog. how i wish i can stand up as your friend to accompany you however that is very hard cause we live in a different kind of world but i will always support you de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-11T11:48:00.000+08:00

finally homeeeeeeeeee
i am so tried larx
slept only @ 10 am in de morning
den wake up @ 2 pm in de noon
went out with PARTNER ZIQUN TOOT JIEYING KAILIN AND JINHUI
1ST is to marsling to but skinny
de GREEN one is damn niceeeeeee
i comfirm i wan to go back and buy with ZINQUN
she is totally crazy over de skinny larx
wan de GREEN yellow red white black purple sky blue
so many!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then to some factory site pei TOOT go interview
that place is damn wu lu larx.....
if i go there alone SURE KANA RAPE LARX.....
but i think that job was quite good
REALLY NEED SOME JOB HUNT !!!!!!!!
totally useless now
de thing i wan all need to ask money from MUMMY
and we went for moive
" APARTMENT 1303 "
that moive sucks larx!!!!!
i hate horror moive larx...
SO DAMN STUPID LARX PAY MONEY TO SCARE YOUR OWNSELF
anyway tired le~
so yawns
good night to de cutest ANN on earth

partner's house

2007-09-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

WALIKING TO MEET DE REST TO BALL

RETARDED-LOOKING AVIS WITH YUQING

i had beeen staying in my PARTNER'S house de past two days
enjoyable stay i can say
expect for de first night
together with TOOT KAILIN ZIQUN and of course PARTNER
cause TOOT and KAILIN SLEPT DAMN EARLY LARX!!!
and ALL OF THEM NEVER LEAVE SPACE FOR ME TO SLEEP LARX!!!
DEN I HAD TO SLEEP ANOTHER ROONM THAT HAS NO AIR-CON!!!
other den that was ok
de supper we had was nice
and yesterday we got friendly with HONG KAH NORTH
i play like a total shit
guess i just can't play full court game
i really dunnoe where to run how to assist
so lost in there- like a TOTAL IDIOT
den we went to play pool after dinner
and AVIS FLORENCE ZIQUN and ME ton @PARTNER'S house
ZIQUN slept early yesterday
hahaha must be too late le ton two days in a roll
den the rest of us entertain ourselves while she is asleep
we watch GAY MOVIE and THE L WORD
and de GAY MOVIE WAS GROSSSSSS!!!!!
all de action just make my hairs stands
but THE L WORD WAS BESTTTTTTTT!!!!!
because of SHANE
she is damn cool handsome style.....
everything of her is soooooo wow!
and my PARTNER is crazy over her
to her now no one is better than SHANE
after de show all went to bed
expect AVIS and ME
VIS wanted a blog
so i help her with it
GOD! I AM SOOOOO CLEVER~
even though i am a idiot at first
but i manage to one good one for her
and she is very HARD TO SATISFIES
by de time we finish her blog is already like 7:30am
and we went to bed
THREE PEOPLE IN ONE BEDDDDDDDD
DAMNNNN SQUEEZZZZY LARX!!!!
but VIS was very guai yesterday
cause she never really kick yesterday
HMMMMMMM
maybe is too squeezy le den she totally cannot turn so never kick
hahahaha
and we woke up damn early 4 plus in de late noon
den balling with TOOT JIEYING KAILIN JIN HUI@ de 231 court
is damn not nice to play there
so EVERYONE PLS TRIED NOT TO GO THERE TO BALL OK?
and TWIN came to find us
we had dinner and went home
feel so bad cause TWIN came all de way here den no programe
actually want to K den ton at my house de
but VIS needs to ga home
den after K she will be penny-less le
but in de end TWIN went VIS house
so HAPPY ENDINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!
and now i am finally home sitting infront com blogging

some PEOPLE are just soooo in de way
i really HATE it when PEOPLE take game TOO LIGHTLY
even though is a friendly i think we should all play to our best
but PEOPLE is so lazy on court like she is de queen in there
dun even bother to run
PLS RESPECT DE GAME! DE TEAM! AND DE PLAYER IN THERE!
IF WE PUT OUR 100% , PLS PUT YOUR 110% IN THERE!

TO STACKERS:
i really feel that we are damn slack now! i think we should really do something to it before de worse happen!and me myself is also slacking behind.
stackers-ians, LET'S WORK HARD TOGETHER! WE MUST NOT SLACK CAUSE THERE IS GAMES AHEAD OF US THAT WE NEED TO FIGHT! SO WE NEED TO BE BACK IN OUR TOP FORM! SO THAT DE REWARD GAO LAO GIVE US WILL BE WORTHY!

more of stackers

2007-09-10T02:30:00.000+08:00

IYANA,YUNA,AVIS AND ME BY DE SIDE

WITH DE STACKERS MACHINE

HAPPY US!

1 BIG FAMILY !

OUR ACHIEVEMENT ( 4TH PLACING @ 2007 )

stackers

2007-09-08T13:55:00.000+08:00

UNDER 16 AND WITH YUNA AND TIANYI

STACKERS' OUTING @ EAST COAST

(see one more person behind thats AVIS)

CANDI SHOT OF AVIS

long night of fun

2007-09-08T13:42:00.000+08:00

yawns~
just wake up...
today is a happy day
cause we are playing against HONG KAH NORTH later
so long never play match le
duno can play anot
cause my leg is still hurting very much
especially in de night
yesterday i slept @7am in de morning
and now i am awake
so strong right
not like TOOT and KL
said wan ton den 2am sleep le
2 lousy sleepy head
hahaha
i de most pro le
partner's family went oversea
so we went to her house to play
hahaha FUN
and thanks " PAPER SKIRT "
thanks to you now i have got songs on my blog
la-la-la
going to perpare to go for game le

STACKERS-STACKERS-STACKERS
JIA YOU-JIA YOU-JIA YOU

de first post~

2007-09-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

well-well-well
this is my first post on this blog
i am so proud of myself
i finally know how to apply a blog skin to my blog
A BIT dumb isn't it
but it is consider as great achieve OK?

1st of all
i need to thank "paper-skirt"
she is de one who thought me who to do it one
so won't her = NO NICE NICE BLOG

2nd-ly
will be MYSELF
without me = NO BLOG AT ALL = no story
(some applause pls)

and last but no least
i am really happy today
cause my life had just added a " PETER PAN " prince
even though i had known PETER PAN for very long
but we are getting closer each day
each day!